I have started today's blog for a forth time now. I kept feeling like I was making it up. The truth is, I'm new at being a Christian. Christian, I don't get too many people who are happy to hear that's what I am. Most people I meet and let them know have bad history with "Christianity". Whether it be over zealous evangelism or condemning remarks or just bad witnesses of who Christ is, I find it harder to befriend people who have crossed paths with so called "Christians" than I do befriending Hindu Indians who believe in something very different from what I believe. How do we win them over with so many bad christians? It's frustrating!
I grew up thinking I was Christian because I was American. Never opened a bible, I was very uneasy at the name Jesus, and boy was I sinful. I think that is part of the problem, a small part. I think the bigger problem is that people want to be thought of as good people, and good people go to church, and have a bible somewhere. Sunday morning bench warmers, but the rest of the week and sunday for that matter they've got under control. And yet I believe the biggest problem is that people don't believe in Satan. They don't think they can be decieved, manepulated and used by an all evil being who is bent on destruction of souls. A very wise man in my life once said to me, "the nature of deception is that one does not know they are being deceived". At one point in my life I could have easly replaced every they, them and people in the previous sentences with Jamie, me and I. Some times I still can.

I don't mean to point the finger, I'm guilty too. Just pointing out what I perceive. There are much more experienced people than me who could correct or expound on what I think.

Next weekend I go to "the Walk to Emmaus" for 3 days & nights. I could use some prayer in preperation. I want this to be what it is supposed to be, whatever that is. Christine goes the weekend after me. We are really looking forward to it.