Pregnant!

That is a word that has sent shivers down my spine for the last 20 years. It's like hearing about someone who got into a terrible accident, one they could have avoided.
I hve spent most of my life not wanting to bring a child into this horrible world.
Kinda like marriage. Another tragic event that most people fell victim to.

I can't beleive how much it took to open my eyes.
I'm looking at a picture of my wedding right now, two people, two families, infants to Grandparents, three or four generations. It's Beautiful! Kinda like this world when you see it thru His eyes.
Since starting my journey to find God and His purpose for me, a lot has changed. I've changed. I've been secretly thinking about how I would raise a child for some time. I searched the scripture's about how to love my wife long before I met her.
And here I am, anxiously waiting for our baby, I'm nervous. I'm reminded of how I felt waiting to kiss my wife for the first time. Is giddy a real word?
Sooo much is going to change, I know, I have no idea.